"Ghostfriends float through February, faded, fallen
Colder winds through our hearts, faded, fallen
Skin melts back to reveal naught but black
within us all, withering the soul, breathe the pollen
Our life culminates within a crack, faded, fallen
Allergic to the dust, beings reek of reddish rust
We are the Ghostfriends, see us but we're not here
'cause we have so much fucking fear, the lights
they're on, but no one's home
You could say that we lost our hands, we can't
feel
'Cause we're the Ghostfriends and we aren't
real"
"Thus, historically viewed, it has been the office of art to educate the perception of beauty. We are immersed in beauty, but our eyes have no clear vision." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Monday, August 5, 2013
Ghostfriends
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Common as the Sun
The deceptively gradual sinking of this generation's faded capacity for anything of relevance, beyond one's self, is gaining speed and acuity. A degredation of "higher thought" is quickly developing popularity, and with it, tumbles many other essential anthropological "terms". The capacity for art and the beautifully basic human urge to further everything we know, rationalize, and interact with, is being dropped, as if it were a white-hot iron. Instead of wanting to become or to create, we claw and scream for any miniscule drop of carnal pleasure we can soak up with our ravenous sponge. We forsake ourselves in a disturbingly self centered race for whatever makes us "feel the best". Instead of striving to add onto this one, single planet of which we inhabit, we kill one another, and ourselves, in an attempt to reach a pale and sickly state of faux nirvana. We drink ourselves into disgusting states of idiocy, and we are consumed by lusts and fucks. We talk about love as if it were as common as the sun, but we have never seen the sun. Our society blurs into a mixture of lies, addictions, hates, and stupidity in a vile obsession with gaining control of our own pleasure.
So, our future is bleak. What should we do? How can we save ourselves? I would say it is too late. We are all caught in the sinking sand of our own lazy and addicted sponge. There is no hope, there is no escape. Who cares, though? 'Cause I feel alright.
Broken and Poor
"Thoughts make me a slave,
can't control the train,
no escape inside the grave,
vessel meant for pain.
How can this be real?
Straying from the plan,
It's all that I can feel,
wish I was more a man.
My ability to speak,
it's always wrong,
why am I so weak?
Please make me strong...
My heart has reached it's length,
such a sad state, broken and poor,
just give me some strength,
I can't do this anymore."
can't control the train,
no escape inside the grave,
vessel meant for pain.
How can this be real?
Straying from the plan,
It's all that I can feel,
wish I was more a man.
My ability to speak,
it's always wrong,
why am I so weak?
Please make me strong...
My heart has reached it's length,
such a sad state, broken and poor,
just give me some strength,
I can't do this anymore."
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Aldrew
"joy: a simple act of fate
fate: blown by the wind
if you're one day late
you might find
all your joy at end
what you need you hold
so don't look up above
and if you've not been told
don't throw away his love
please don't let him slip
don't drop and crawl
please
don't bite your lip
and watch him fall
regret, like an asp
consumes tenfold
and
within your grasp
is hidden gold
no coin flip nor wheel spin
just hold him tight
'cause
rarely chances come again
so please
please do
what's right"
For my best friend.
fate: blown by the wind
if you're one day late
you might find
all your joy at end
what you need you hold
so don't look up above
and if you've not been told
don't throw away his love
please don't let him slip
don't drop and crawl
please
don't bite your lip
and watch him fall
regret, like an asp
consumes tenfold
and
within your grasp
is hidden gold
no coin flip nor wheel spin
just hold him tight
'cause
rarely chances come again
so please
please do
what's right"
For my best friend.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
My Star
"I saw you standing there
with the golden sun upon your hair
I thought that I was blind
by your shining light
But now I know you're not
who I thought you were
You're a brilliant star
(You're a brilliant star)
You're a brilliant star
behind a thousand more
I want to feel your warmth
like I never have before
I want to hear your voice
above all the noise
I never thought I would find you
but now that you are here
I want to make it clear
that you're my star
And now I know you're not
who I thought you were
You're a brilliant star
(You're a brilliant star)
You're a brilliant star
behind a thousand more"
Listen to it here.
with the golden sun upon your hair
I thought that I was blind
by your shining light
But now I know you're not
who I thought you were
You're a brilliant star
(You're a brilliant star)
You're a brilliant star
behind a thousand more
I want to feel your warmth
like I never have before
I want to hear your voice
above all the noise
I never thought I would find you
but now that you are here
I want to make it clear
that you're my star
And now I know you're not
who I thought you were
You're a brilliant star
(You're a brilliant star)
You're a brilliant star
behind a thousand more"
Listen to it here.
Monday, May 27, 2013
Loss
Loss of personality is a devastating experience akin to a dark, consuming depression. A chunk of your spirit atrophies and decays into a vicious torment. You are left with all the rotten, misery infested terrors, which you call your thoughts. And you'll always know that deep down inside you're untouchable, and deep down you've watched as the violent alterations ripped nature down in a whirlwind of mass desolation. Tearing you into a mangled, scarred ball of writhing puss, while you could only watch the mirrors burn down around you. Warming your hands for a time, the flame quickly flaring up and dying away, nothing can resurrect it, your flame has ended far beyond time. The flame of your soul, who you are in the heart of your hearts, is ripped away from you and torn to dust. If you light the fires early, they will be extinguished into the infinite nothing. Losing yourself is indescribable, words can never suffice for all the pain, loss, anger, and addictively poisonous melancholy. Regret for all your empty, golden flames. Wasted time is like a shooting star burnt out and hurled away into nothing's wake. You are stripped of yourself, like a snail from it's shell, and you are trapped in every foreign crack. You live in a hell, merely a dark fraction of a pitiful human being. A lonely feeling wrapped inside a body of grim misunderstandings and pointless interactions. When your hope melts into guilt, and you've lost the glint in your eyes, and spark on your face, it's the most awful and morbidly disturbing fear I have ever had.
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Crack
"A family that is forged from lust,
is a family born broke from greed,
a lack of meaning inside of trust,
a family that forsakes to feed.
Little could be more shameful,
than waste of a heart and soul,
mere impact rolls like rainfall,
fear fate for fating a role.
Squandered loss of dreams,
from a single sins vile flaw,
flies sins to flames and screams,
leaves me left in searing awe."
is a family born broke from greed,
a lack of meaning inside of trust,
a family that forsakes to feed.
Little could be more shameful,
than waste of a heart and soul,
mere impact rolls like rainfall,
fear fate for fating a role.
Squandered loss of dreams,
from a single sins vile flaw,
flies sins to flames and screams,
leaves me left in searing awe."
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Please, Let me Stay
"In the safe haven carved within her covers
empty inside from drifting into the fray
I wish she knew I loved her
because she might not feel this way
Her noose hangs like silk from space
she knots it more each day
I wish I wasn't out of place
because she might not feel this way
Her dam is breaking stone by stone
she sees the water is gray
I want her to know she's not alone
she doesn't need to feel this way
She's lost inside the deepest desert
and I wish to the stars
that I could once just show her
how I want to heal her scars
If she'd just let me stay
because she might not feel this way
She might not feel this way"
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Voyage into Pathos
"Waves of bitter sensation swell in a deafening cacophony of shattered peace
in a shameful storm of trembling teardrops tumbling through a sky so bleak
angry streaks of pure white flame tearing the dark in a deafening release
cancerous chaos risen from a deep sea of despair into an impeneterable peak
My white sails wave onward tossed and torn within my seared soul water
regret rusting away at my battered bow in the remorse of unabated rain
through the eyes of angels all hope of surviving an escape from slaughter
seems a strain which is stemied in it's doom: a hope held high in vain
Celestial beings: decieved, for though the storm of pathos tosses 'round my ship
fleeting feelings born in brevity bear no sway on course of destination
my rudder is my action in it's turn I contain complete control within my grip
no dissenting emotion alters who I am, all actions are my only definition"
Your feelings don't define you, your actions do.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Paroi Déception
Verse 1:
"Another handicap, and my failures are still around.
People, never satisfied, are always looking down.
Thoughts running rampant in my head,
all odds, and I wish I was dead.
Nobody knows how what I've done, could ever be right,
and in all this dark, there's no light."
Chorus:
"All paths are now blocked, all bridges burned.
No one can help, no one's concerned.
I should have known...
A wall of disappointment, I built it alone.
Words lost in emptiness, nothing makes sense,
feeling helpless.
Collapsing me down,
it's over now..."
Verse 2:
"A life of affliction, fueled by
mental restriction.
Help me to learn, to know
this addiction.
No one will know why I did what I did,
no will know how to take down my wall,
but if you drink from my cup, I promise
you'll fall. Bound to the ground,
I'll never see the sky, but it's all okay,
'cause one day I'll die."
Chorus x2
A song I'm working on.
"Another handicap, and my failures are still around.
People, never satisfied, are always looking down.
Thoughts running rampant in my head,
all odds, and I wish I was dead.
Nobody knows how what I've done, could ever be right,
and in all this dark, there's no light."
Chorus:
"All paths are now blocked, all bridges burned.
No one can help, no one's concerned.
I should have known...
A wall of disappointment, I built it alone.
Words lost in emptiness, nothing makes sense,
feeling helpless.
Collapsing me down,
it's over now..."
Verse 2:
"A life of affliction, fueled by
mental restriction.
Help me to learn, to know
this addiction.
No one will know why I did what I did,
no will know how to take down my wall,
but if you drink from my cup, I promise
you'll fall. Bound to the ground,
I'll never see the sky, but it's all okay,
'cause one day I'll die."
Chorus x2
A song I'm working on.
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